ME

Well, I'm me. I am married, but we are not together. We are best friends, though. I have a boyfriend that I live with. I have 4 kids (Justine, Troyal, Tobias, & Keagen) . One of his kids (Christian) lives with us. He has 2 more kids. I would of had 2 more, but I had an ectopic & a premature birth. My daughter Emmalee was born June 28, 1999 weighing 11oz. & 10 1/2 in. She died within the hour of her birth. She was born breathing and I held her in my arms as she took her last breaths. Since she was under a certain weight, she was considered a miscarriage & they would not do anything to help save her. But go figure with this...I have a death certificate for her, but not a birth one. How can you die without being born???

I am a stay at home mom, looking into doing online classes for a local college. My boyfriend works from real early morning (like 3am) to either afternoon or night. We really don't get alone time. He works his ass off.

I have depression & anxiety. I have been treated for it off & on through my life. The most recent was 2007. I was admitted twice in 2007 to the psychiatric ward. (i am not crazy, just have some problems). Feb. 2007, I was admitted for overdosing on Tylenol. i spent the night in the ICU, because of having a leathal dose. The second time, June 2007, was an alcohol induced episode. I was walking in the middle of lane on a main road, not caring what happened. I have had thoughts since then, but have not acted on them. I havent taken any meds since Oct.2007.

I will talk about growing up in my next blog. thanx 4 reading!